Hmmm, been real busy TRYING to study these few days.. Explains why i didn't blog... Been really studying for my maths and i think im like soooo damn dead... First paper on monday.. Screwed to the core!!! English.. Hopefully i get thru it w/o a scratch... Then comes mother tongue.. Thats like overly screwed alr la so lets go on to the next... Which is, Maths!!! Yes... No.. Wait!! If i fail my a maths.. Im gonna be screwed cos then, i have to go sch for the first 10 days of the school holidays for extra lessons... Pls... Why dun you just skin me alive now and eat my bones!?!?!?! Effin studies.. Its killing the mood of millions around the world.. Why cant we just live like when adam & eve were just created... Where clothes weren't invented yet and everyone's showing their lil dingies and girls were flaunting their boingboings.... huh?? And nobody ever tot that studying would actually help make the world a better place...

Ok.. Bottomline, why is it not me who was created to start mankind?? Then i can totally forge a better future for the generations beyond me.. And stop anyone who had any intentions of making study something so important... Yah.. Haiz.. Actually i know the answer to my question.. Cos you know why? Its all connected to geography.. Cos if i was the start of mankind and adam was wearing nth but his skin.. There would be an overpopulation in a very short perios of time due to the horny-ness of me, myself and i... Well, if only adam was someone i knew..... *build castles in the air*

Boo! Get back to reality man.. This is so crazy.. No idea why im so high today.. Serious.. For the whole of today i was high like as if i on drugs... But....... I better not be alone for too darn long... Or else my stupid puny little brain might start a war with me by running wild like a crazy damn bull... Yes.. I HAVE an issue with loneliness and i get really afraid when im alone... Yupps.. Explains why im always not home cos NOBODY'S HOME!!! =) Must understand.. everybody got their different difficulties when it come to physchology.. Mine's just a little on the weird side.. And pls dun think im crazy... Just KNOW that i am... =)

Effin stupid hands.. Typing stupid words that i dun even know means what... Haiyah.. I tell you ah.. Mandy really needs professional help.. any recommendations for a therapist?? Cos if you have, DUN TELL!!! Then pple will know that you have problems.. Ahahahaah... Wanna tell also must tell me secretly... So only I know!!! HAhahaha... *screwed up expression* Watsup with me and my craziness today?

CRAPERDOODOOS!! Got tuition laters at 6pm. Better ciao now.. Wooperdy-DOO!!!! Bye!

Wellps.. My baby called me.. He's currently a lil busy.. He reached singapore at 6.30 and bcos he threw his hp in Pulau ubin.. He couldn't reach me until he reached home... =) Haha.. He's sooo irrational at times.. Lol.. I would never intentionally cause harm to my precious phone... Haha.. Can't believe he did that just cos he saw my msg(s) but couldn't reply or call bcos there wasn't reception... Was damn funny lah... Lol..

Outing with Sham today was alright.. Nth much to talk about.. So, watsup all? Im missing my V.Gs and ais and logen and not forgetting teddy... Yupps.. I just realise something.. I've been going thru alot of emo moments these days.. I wonder why.. Oh.. And i read this magazine talking bout depression.. I read every symptoms and i matched ALL of them.. I seriously think i need to go find help.. I think im undergoing depression and im the only one that realise it.. I need professional help...

Here,

Symptoms of Depression :
-persistent sadness or feeling down
-loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed most of the time
-loss of appetite and weight
-insomnia or sleeping more than usual
-feeling restless or more agitated easily
-feelinf tired and having little energy
-unable to concentrate and think clearly and thereby becoming indecisive
-feeling of worthlessness and guilt
-recurrent thoughts of death.

Seriously.. they say that if i experience more than five of these symptoms and they last for more than two weeks.. There is a high chance that i AM depressed.. Shitohs... I can't believe im a freaking depressed freak.. Ahahaha... Fuck life... Im still happy and high cos my baby finally called and i think we're meeting tmr.. I think!!! No hopes being put up too high YET.... =)

Wtf?!?! My mom just bought me a hello kitty handphone holder shit.. you noe? The one that looks like a sock or something.. Yellow with a big printing of that stupid cat with hearts around it.... GAWD!!! Now i have to use it cos my mom seemed so happy when she gave it to me.. I have to show her respect and use it right? Can't make her sad and disappointed all.. Woman are sensitve creature.. I should noe, since i basically have female hormones making me feel miserable at every single little thing... Especially when you're having PMS... Even the if the sky have lesser clouds than usual will make you feel angry or sad.. Haha... So hello! hello kitty.... Goodbye anti-hello-kitty fan.... Shitface... Pls.. Make this just a dream...

Ah.. Heck... Hmmmm, my handphone currently acts like an mp3 player.. It has 20 over songs now.. Good enough for me... =) see! Im easily pleased.. So dun say im hard to please cos im not... Sometimes..... ;) Yupps... Im bored.... Oh.. And i apologise for my previous post about racism.. I hope i didn't hurt anyone... Im just trying to say that racism should not be a habit amongst us.. So TRY your vey best... Play your part as a singaporean even if you dun like it... Say no to racism like you're saying it to drugs.. There's no difference cos both are crimes right? So why not... =)

Whoops!! I listening to emo songs now and i think i better turn to better songs... Songs can affect my mood badly especially when im PMSing... So chill... =) And its time for me to go.. Toodles!

Have you ever encountered with people you wish you can turn inside out and stuff rubbish up their smelly ass then sew their puss together so they cant fuck in their life??? Yah... Me too.. I never DID encounter such a person.. But im hoping i will soon.. Cos there's this anger inside me fighting its way out... And i need someone to be my experimento.... Yeah.. Yah.. So come on! bitch me up! Give me your best shot.... Make my life miserable and then screw me up again and again... Then i got a reason to kill... Yah.. Classified under manslaughter.. Then i screw my life up.. Ruin my future.. Disappoint my love ones.. Hope to die and life still goes on cos im such a coward.... =) Woooo! No idea i loved myself this much....

Hmmm, its been eons since i saw my baby and im still not used to it... G.A.G!!! Yah... Lets put that aside and talk about something more practical... Im going out with hisyam laters to watch a movie.. Hopefully he doesn't turn up late cos the movie starts at 2.10pm... Lords of Dogtown baby!! Im so excited.. The show seems super duper nice.... Yah.. And dun even go close to talking to me bout Longest Yard... Cos then you're giving me a reason to kill... Ok.. Wait.. Watsup with me and manslaughter?? I think im a potential murderer ah.. Wa lau... Im not ready for prison!! Noooooo!!!!

Ahaha.. I wonder if the government will send police to my house for attemting to promote murder... Oh watever that im trying to do... Like you know? Those stupid darn bloggers who got caught for racism in their blogs.. Wah.. I tell you i CANNOT take racist people.. They get on my nerves... Doesn't matter what race they discriminates.. Its just soooo darn wrong to be racist.. Especially in Singapore.. For fuck's sake you've been living in singapore for so long and you're telling me you learn nth about the other races that you can respect?? My gawd, you must be either an idiot or someone who was taught the wrong things since birth...

Seriously, what is up with Racism?? And they say racism exists in everyone? Just whether or not the scale is high or low type of racism... Please... You can "not like this one particular person".. But bcos of that one person stereotype the whole racial community of that race is pure demeaning to yourself and the country lah.... I have this one friend who totally pissed me off when she told me she was kinda protecting herself against this particular race bcos of ONE particular guy who broke her heart.. Pul-lease!!! Do you mean to say that if a guy from the same race as you breaks your heart, you will hate your own race??? Save that for someone who cares lah, please...

Lol.. I have no idea why i got so much to say on this topic.. Perhaps bcos i've been close to many other races.. Most of my close friends are either malay or indians... My boyfriend's an indian... My closest friend that i first had was a mixture of indian and chinese... So heck! What's the deal of people being racist? I have learnt sooooo much from my friends of other races and i've learn to respect all of their believes, and whatsoever.... Come to think of it, never did i once felt like i was more "high-class" or watever than the other races... In fact i admire some of them, they can have alot of determination and faith in their believes and somehow or rather i can't... So you see, It's not whether majority or minority or whatever shit the newspaper says... Its you... Its just like dengue fever thingy.. If you do your part, you can stop the blood... Ahahah.. Not like there's any bloodshed lah but still..... =)

Ok... enough of this topic.. Later i anyhow say until something that violates the law.. Then ill be in deep shit.... Yah... Hopefully nobody reads this.. save me a whole lot of shit if i said anything that might triger a war... Pfuit! I gtg get ready.. Bye!

Im missing him badly..
Really missing him..
Haven't been in contact for quite long..
At least it SEEMS long...

Got my pay.. Quite good... Im happy... Im gonna meet My V.Gs and sham and izuan laters to study... Im meeting V.Gs first.. And i hope they arent fasting cos i wanna eat Macs!! =) I really wish we end up study good... I'd better catch up with muh science and humanes or im dead... HAhaha.. WRONG! Like i actually give a damn... Im halfway down the drain already.... Im half giving up.. Yah.. Where's the passion when you need it the most? Its a very good questions.. And ill leave it to you guys to solve it cos im way too lazy now to even think....

I realise that ever since dunno when i've gotten use to having my hp everywhere i go.. Even to the toilet!!! Somehow, someway i cant live w/o it.. And nowadays usually at night ill be waiting for a call.. =) and sometimes the call just doesn't come.. So the next morning i wake up and i look at it.. Then i just look down and start feeling a crappy over again... :)

To the one i love so much :

Call me when you say you'll call...
Dun just stand there and watch me fall..
I wait for you every night..
Just for you to say i love you, goodnight...

I know you have your own priorities...
So sometimes i feel crappy i turn to my besties..
But somehow someway i wish you were here...
Just to take away all my fears...
ILU!!!

Okays!! And to my beloved V.Gs... I love you love you love you!!! And yesterday was very heartwarming and touching... Now i feel alot much closer to you guys.. I love you thru!! And its not a lie... Really.. From the bottom of my heart.. I love you!!! =)

Ok! Ciao! Oh yah.. My parents and Bryan are in Genting!! Im kinda enjoying the "freedom".. Haha.. Damn! But i miss 'em too... Still loving having the whole house to myself.. And wilson also lah.. But who cares.... ;)

So, here's the wasted tootie face again to blog about her erm, life... Yupps.. I feel lethargic but yet high.. I think i know why.. Someone must have spiked my drink just now... *shock face* *gasp* MUST BE... Must be!!! Must be myself lah... Today was pure wasted cos my damn contacts just made me lose all mood to party... I got great grades for my e maths test but cindy didn't really do that great.. And she kinda was sad so i din wanna add salt to wound so i just kept quiet... I was afraid she would turn her sadness into anger and i wasn't really in the mood to be her punching bag just then.. So i decided taking one step back and letting her chill was the absolutely right thing to do....

School was freaked up.. My right eye was red like nobody's business and everyone either tot i cried or i was pissed.. Leonardi thinks its cos i watch porn.. For christ sake dude.. I dun watch porn.. It ain't really a girl's fave thing to do you know? Please...

Im still missing my baby lots.. He'll be gone the next few days for camp and i haven't seen that kuku-head for about 9 days already... Yah.. Whoa... Super cool... So hoping he call me today... I mean like later or something.. Earliest i think THAT will happen is 11.00pm.. And im already feeling like a car just knocked me down... That kukuhead must have done real good his past life... I wonder how would other girls react in a situation like this.. They'll prolly go like "You idiot!! Huh? You are s'pose to treat me like a princess. In your brain must be only me, me and ME!!" But not me, not mandy... Mandy just goes "ok.... go do your own stuff.. " and maybe the frequent ASSHOLE!!!!! But then other than that Mandy's totally cool with it.. Cos Mandy's s;pose to be understanding and very very patient... Yah...

Yupps.. Im sooo gonna achieve anger management in no time... And patience as well... Im on the road to self-actualisation.. Like i even noe what that means... Ah.. Bleah~ Im just real bored now... And im really in the bigg time show called "CRAVING FOR THE MOVIE LONGEST YARD".. This is screwed.. Im gonna take my pay tmr.. And it better be good... =) See ya !

Wow.. I cant believe muself.. I was feeling super alright just 15 minutes ago.. But while i was reading blogs of my love ones.. I suddenly realise how much negativity have taken over the recent generations of teenagers.... The negativity, the sad stories where love seems so far away.. And seeing some of them hurt themself emotionally just makes me sad... I know... I get influenced easily by other's moods... I cant help it ok? When i see my friend blog bout shitty stuff thats happening and moreover, i've read a few which really made me think... :)

You know how it feel when someone who is very important to you, somehow makes you feel like he/she doesn't feel the same for you?? I dunno... Maybe i havent really been there for them anymore.. And maybe im just a hypocrite who goes ard saying ilu but dun mean it.. Or maybe im just a pathetic low life who keeps her head up high even though she wants to go to the end of the world where no one else can ever get to her...

And the difference between the past mandy and now? Is that well? When im typing all this shit? Im making a mental note to myself not to ever say them again cos repeating misery on my darn blog is just pure pathetic... Isn't saying "life suck life suck life sucks to the core" boring??? Look, we haven't even get thru one quarter of the shit we're suppose to go thru in one entire lifetime.. So why choose now?? When life is all blossoming well and the only time where you can mould yourself into the person you want to be... Why choose now to ruin it all by thinking that 15 is as shitty as it can get? Im not trying to be a positive babe or some stupid person who thinks life can be good WHEN you make it look good... No.. Cos i noe even if i say that... It wun make any sense to our puney lil brain that is now filled with so much negativity that one day it feels like it might just explode and cos a terrorist attck that would end the whole of your world....

Im just saying, hey.... When you feel like even the shit in your bloody toilet bolw is looking down on you.... And you scroll down your bloody phone book just to realise that those so-called"besties" aren't really the pple you wish to talk to... And you feel even your gf/bf isn't gonna make life any easier.. OR even when you see your older sibling walk past and wonder if he/she had gone thru the same shit as you did..... IT"S FREAKIN NOT THE END OF THE WORLD...

Yeah.. Well, i can say all this shit.. It may get you thinking.. It may not.. It may even get you starting to hate me cos im not taking my own advice.. But eh... Dun blame me!! Im 15!! ;)

Oh.. rmb to scroll down for dedications yea? -TC-

OK!!!! Dedications time!!!!

First and foremost!!! My family!!!

I love you guys with every fibre of my being... I may not express my feelings well or i may seem like im keeping to myself.. I may even seem as if i hate you guys.... But you know what? I love you guys with the deepest deepest feeling and my heart belongs to you for life... I dunno where ill be without you guys.. Without my dad constant pushing to be a better person.. My mom's constant showering of unconditional love... My older bro's constant teaching on anger management... Bryan's constantly giving me ray of hopes whenever i feel like the world's gonna end.. And lastly, Clarissa for just being there when i need a sister.... =) I love you guys loads...



Next, my V.Geez!!! You guys are my LIFE outside home... You guys... Just being there for me, being my pillar for me when i feel scared.. When i really feel confused.... You guys, just being there makes me love you more and more.... Even if Moufie, you dunno how to console me when im crying.. It still counts, cos you were there.. At the other end of the line saying "mandy, dun worry.. everything's gonna be fine.." And i believe you, that everything's gonna be fine...

And Krush! You? You're the only pillar left standing after all the 911 attacks on my life... You the one that i count on when im attacked by ants... The one who will go thru shit and crap with me.. The one that be frank and yet still melt my heart.. You're the angel on earth that i found only after so much crap... You really make me a better person.. And for that YOU are MY mother theresa... You are the one i cry to when i got soooo drunk i dunno who else to turn to... You are the first one i told when my love life came back on track.. You're the one that understands me the most... So for that i love you a hell lot!!

Anarchy, you.. Your laughter just tickles me.. You're the cute lil' sister that i missed out on in life... You know.. even though you cant be with us most of the time... I still feel you're one of us... And if there's anyone that makes you feel like shit.. You tell me first hand... I ask gang go bash him/her up kays?? You take care of urself.. Somehow, i feel like amonst us all, you're the most selenger and the most easily hurt one.. Just dun keep everything to yourself kay? Love you...



Next, my other friends who mean alot alot to me as well.... Like,

Stacy.. even though we dun get to spend much time together.. There's always a bonding between my teddy bear and me... You wanna noe why? Cos teddy bears are the ones you hug and cry with until your tears dry up.. and teddy bears wun complain about you being such a bitch.. And teddy bears accept you even if you're a whiny lil pigg!! That is why i love my teddy.. And its not just a word i say.. When i say i love you.. I mean it.. You mean alot to me even if maybe you think im just an ordinary friend to you....

Ais, You mean a freaking whole lot to me... The past moments we shared was the most unforgetable... We became besties in the shortest perios of time.. And you made me realise that just being a lil girlish and adding a lil bitchin to life aint a bad thing... YOu made me see bad things in a good way.. You crack me up everytime you laugh over the littlest thing ever... And hey, if any "dinosaurs" dare lay hands on you.. I dun care if its T-rex or Whatever shit, he/she wun live to see the day his/her species extinct....

Logen, You..... The shit and stuff we go thru.. I cannot express with words... I really really cannot express whatever thingy we went thru.. It may mean little to you... But you were the first friend i actually wanted to remember, for life.... So thats all.. Logen, i hope i make your life better in someway just like the way you did with mine... i love you...


And lastly to my ever one true love Daniel Krishnan Kumar!!! Ill stop loving you, y'know when? Only when the sun stop shining and when piggs start flying... Yah.. Till the end of time baby... Till the end of time....
*I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you*
Its true baby... You mean alot to me... Every microsecond i think of you.. Every millisecond im missing you... I hope you feel the way that i feel... Cos you mean the world to me.. The short period of time we're together you've already gotten your way thru to my heart and leave an engraving of your presence there... ILU baby...


Yupps.. So, dedications over.... I love you guys!!! And i've been misiing all of those that i haven been in contact with lots and lots.... Love ya, love me! *smucks*

Im soooo sooo happy today... Although today is the fifth day that me and Baby wun be able to meet.. Im happy bcos today??? He called me and we finally had a proper conversation... But after that i gotta hang up... And i called him again when i could.... Then after he gotta go play soccer so we couldn't talk.. He said he wanna make it up to me by dedicating today to me.. But i dun think thats gonna happen... So, im happy enough the way it is.. He soo totally made my day.... I was smiling and singing ALL day long.. I even smiled when i was having my nap.... =)

We call this bliss and luck add together.. Well, turn out the reason why my bf was tooo busy was bcos he had a job that sucked and that took up alot of his time.. So being an understanding gf, i forgive him and i really hope we can spend more time together.. =) At least my sunday isn't ruined eh? I love my baby soooo freaking much.. Oh yah... And i told him all my grievance over the past few days and he was out of words.. so he just said sorry and reassured me of his love and all... That pretty much did the job.. Haha... Dunno why im sooo crazy over this boy... He's the sweetest i tell you... :)

So, this past few days have been messaging this guy and i kinda realise something pretty shocking.. I wun say it here.. Cos its not exactly a good thing... Haha.. Yeni soo totally freaked out when i told her.. And Danile totally thinks he's an absolutely dork case.. But i think he's ok lah... Not too bad.... Lol.. I mean, he's funny and he seriously knows how to praise me until im higher than the sky.. But tats just too bad cos my heart's with someone else.. Lol... Baby totally laughed his ass off when i told him that... He was like.. "hmmm.. I wonder who is it..?" Lol....

Haha... You can so totally see that im very happy now right? Lol... Ohh.. Im soooo in love with oldies songs lately that i got them all stuck in my head.... "tie the yellow ribbon round the old oak tree" & "7 lonely days, makes one lonely week" & "stupid cupid! Stop pickin on me." & " Dunno much abt history, dunno much biology" ... They're all such nice and cute songs... I wonder why im the only one who loves 'em soo much in my family... Lol....

HAPPY LANTERN FESTIVAL everyone!!! Yupps! I'll be having a sumptuous meal of steamboat later on at my grandma's place... Woot!! Im loving it.. Im keeping my tummy empty for that meal.. Although i really have a craving to eat and eat and eat now.. But the steamboat is all worth the wait... Especially my grandpa's secret chilli!!! Wah!! You guys should totally try that bloody chilli.. Its savouring to every single last crisp!! Trust me... Im gonna ask Danile to try it someday.. Its mouth watering i tell you.. IRRESISTABLE!!!! *slick*

Lol.. Ok.. Im gonna munch on some yummy plums now.. So toodly toodles!!!

Oh wells, i guess Daniel wun be able to make it today.. It's been three days and the most we ever did was sms.. Plus his sms-es never go more than 2 replies... Wow.. You can sooo tell that im "happy"... I try to force it to the back of my damn head but i just cant help but think "god dammit!! Im ur gf and you cant meet me you dun even bother to call??" Im pissed.. Yah.. Tell him that.. I freaking try to be understanding.. I really try ok!?!?!? I noe these few days he busy.. But he said today would be fine.. And when i called him just now, he said " I'll get back to you later.." And trust me... His later never comes.. Yah... Good bye movie! Goodbye outing... Goodbye to the hyper mandy.... Bleah~ I would whine more but that doesn't realy help for for christ sake MANDY!!! Get a grip!!!

Ok.. I got a grip... From who?!?!? Huh?!?! Wtv... So, school was fine for today... Nth much happened.. I was quite hyper.. Although every message Daniel ignored made my hyperness level decline til well, til now... Whoa... Ever tasted Carlsbrg beer?!?! It taste like total pure crap!! Oh my god.. I cant believe i took a sip of that shit!!! Yucks!!! Tiger is sooo much better.. But hey, im not drinking.. Im not.... I was just testing since i have so many cans of beer in my refrigerator... Lol.... I mean, rather give it a tatse than let it rot in the fridge right? Dun waste money.. =)

*You need a BLUE sky holiday*

Yes... I really need one...

*You have a bad day*

How in the world did you know???

*You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost*

Oh wells, cants find a pile of leaves for me to kick.. So many ill just kick my own damn ass!!! Bleah~ Im really pissed and sad over the whole cant meet Daniel thingy... Moreover i have something else to be sad at.. Yah.. TUITION!!! At friggin 7.30pm tonight... Babe, i so gotta grit my teeth and go thru this stuuupid shitty day... And maybe force a few smiles later when my tuition teacher is here.... Study like crazy for 1-2 hours... Then maybe ill knock myself out by biting my on tongue... WAIT!!! Does biting your tongue kills? I think it does eh?!?!?!

Shittypantswithholesatthebottom... Freakin bored at home... If only he could see the state im in... Im freakin bored sia... Oh yah!! Gues whats my new fetish is!??! THat cool yellow band that says "UNLOCK THE 2ND PRISON"... Isn't it totally cool?!?! I got it from samantha and i have no intentions of taking it off... Please.. I just love it soo much... Even though yellow isn't really my colour and that it doesn't even look a tad bit good on me... Pfuit!!

So, i wonder when ill be able to watch THE LONGEST YARD.... Im really yearning to watch it but im not gonna watch it with anyone else except Daniel... So even if the show ends now.. Im not gonna watch it.. But i tell you, if the show ended without me watching it first... Ill kill the theatre people right after i kicked Daniel's butt.... Yes... Trust me when i say trust me... I may even do something worse than that... Like bite my wrist until the veins pop out?? HAhaha.... Jkjk.. Im not as sadistic as Ais here.. So phew!! Gave you a scare eh?? Lol...

Okays... *we'll be burning ya'all* Bye!!!

Well, there's much havoc going on in my tagboard... I wonder why that person gotta tag so much nonsense... You know what i think? I think if she/he didn't use the name "some1" and used the REAL some1's name, she/he wouldn't be in so much trouble.. Cos i think messing with the real some1 is wooo! SCARY!!! But im happy i have her here to protect me!! Haha.... First time i saw her i knew she was like a big sis.. Haha.. Too bad she cant rmb when we first met eh? In the perr support programme thingy.. When i was still a problem kid. Yeah.. You ah.. Relacs ah.. I never see you scold pple until lidat before sia. Ok.. Maybe not in front of me eh? Relacs.. Lol...

So, im left here all alone at home feeling bored... Im not meeting daniel today cos he got lotsa stuff on... Yupps... Im wishing we can talk on the phone tonight.. But i wonder if he'll be too busy... I think he will be busy... So i better not get my hopes up too high.. Its ok... We have lotsa time more to spend together.. Whats 24 hours gonna do to me??? *smiles*

Yesterday was good... Was fairly well.... But it kinda turned sour at night... Lotsa shit happened after i left and went to eat all alone at Lot 1... And i realise that eating dinner all alone at a crowded food junction where you see everybody with companions is NOT a good thing... Cos it was then after that i started to feel all crappy and oh wells, shit happens.... :)

Oh.. I almost forgot... I wanna thank all the poeple that tagged on my tagboard.. You guys really made my day.... and saying im pretty and all??? Woot!!! That made me even higher than heaven!!!! Haha.... Jkjk.... Thx yah? Hopefully you guys helped to scare of the stupid tagger who tags nothing but thrash... :)

Hmmm, what else have i gotto say in this blog of mine??? Oh.. I wanna recommend you guys all to start getting a diary.... A writen one... Dun have to be a secretive one but just one that you can bring along anywhere you go and write your stuff inside... I mean, trust me when i say trust me.. A diary's gonna do you lotsa good when you're feeling either too hyper or super duper sad... I can guarantee plus kingston chop for you.. Life time warranty.... But depends on individual also.. You dun have to write in it everyday or anything.. Just like when you're holding a pen and feel like scribbling something.. A personal diary DO come in handy... Yah.. Trust me, i have already collected 5 diary's of my own... And only recently have i realise the uses of it.. I use to think it was just a hobby... Now?? Its a habit.. And it helps me relieve stress or whatever shit that goes within my mind...

You know? Whne you feel like your heart is pumping too much blood to your head at one particular moment?? A diary helps... You just freaking write every single shit in your diary and after a while... You find that, "hey! actually i feel so much better...".... Yah... I mean it doesn't matter if you write "oh.. today's just bad.. real bad.." or "i finally got that stupid pink dress i wanted..." or perhaps even "Dammit!! I lost my brother!! And i still cant find him but heck!" A diary just keeps you company when you're feeling anything or EVERYTHING in the world.. Trust me.. GET A FRIGGIN DIARY!!!! :)

So, off the serious stuff... Back to reality... Tuition on friday.. 7.30 pm... vincent.. Maths and science.. I think ill be working on science much more than maths cos im soooo off the track when it comes to science... Esp chemistry... Ha! talking bout maths...You know?? Trigonometry is one freakin chapter that can make all my hair drop... Like as if its not dropping enough alr... Serious... dun have a single clue whats she's talking about during trigo... She said "blah blah blah".. Im like "huh??" Then she teach.. Then i "okok!! I know alr".... *5 mins later* "shit! How to do qns 2 ah??" Wah... Trigo is really killing me inside out sia... But Mdm Ong is by far the best maths teacher i ever have.. Seriously.... I respect her and i DO listen to her... It may not sound convincing enough that im actually saying this but its true.. I like mdm ong.. One of the few that i ever respected in my life...

Ok.. I better stop here ah... Write so long post alr.. Bye!

Today was another pure crapped up day.. I kinda screwed myself up bcos of conscience issues... Well, i suddenly felt very very VERY useless when i tot about how well i was doing academically...

Woot!! Went to a blog.. Super freaking funny i tell you.. Those people are wooo!! The best criticisers in d world!! And uber hilarious too! I was laughing my ass off bigg time.... Anyways, daniel ask if i wanna go to the birthday party tmr... Its for one whole day... I think i wanna go but i think i dun wanna go... I dun even think my mom will allow.. I wanna go cos i wanna see daniel.. I dun wanna go cos scared i cant interact well... But oh wells.. We'll see...

Okays.. Tata!

Woooohooooo!!! my favourite picture i save for the last... Was very difficult to convince him to take a picture but he still did cos he promised me.. WIll always love you baby!! :) Oh.. Yah... Did i mention thats my baby?? Daniel... LOL.. e'll kill me when he sees this.... 

Cute right??? Duh~ Must see who the sister is.. *smirk* HAha... Jkjk... 

My mommy and my baby bryan!!!! Love 'em both.. 

We were there once(as proven by picture)... And we WILL be there again... Soon.... I guess... 

Eh!!! Dun litter ah!!! Later Fateha come find you... 

Wah!! She so strong!!! *do drama look* "My hero!!!" 

Wooo!! The apple of my eye!!! Yeni!!! Love ya babe! 

Fatty baby!!! Love her so much! 

Woot!! Angry face!!! 

WAH!!!! I think this picture super cool.. eh? 

One real stupid picture of me and hapchye.... *bored* 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im feeling super stress now and im blasting every little single song i can!!!! Blah lah!!! I need to so buck up on my studies.. So im gonna study later... Im still thinking of a better way to tell my mom about my progress card.. Shitty pants!!! HOW!?!?!?!?!?? I dun wanna study anymore!!! I quit!! *right* Like as if i ever can stop studying.....

*where is the passion when you need it the most*

Fuck life lah!!! No.. fuck today!!! Not only i not meeting my baby.. I suddenly feel soooo damn sick... I dun feel like eating... I eat, i vomit..... I stressing over my progress card... Im stressing over exams.. Im scared ill fail badly.. Im afraid ill disappoint my parents.. Im afraid they'll find out about something.. Im afraid ill lose something... Suddenly all the bad bad feeling are all coming back at me.... Shi bal nom!!!!!

Seriously, i dunno watsup with me these days.. I started work only.. Din feel like eating at all.. Pkus my cramps and my gastric is killing me bigg time... Its like today is the worse day ever!!!! I just cant eat... And my frens force me to eat.. So i ate a few mouths and was full to the max until i almost vomit... My v.gs think i look super pale.. I think im sick... Its a whole sack of shit all pile up in one day.. How is a tired poor little girl gonna take that kinda shit??? AH... F***....

So, im gona study now.. So, ciao!!! Take care guys!! Study hard and get sup[er good grades.. Dun be like me..... Love ya'all!!

Wooooo! Work was tiring to da max man.. I tell you.. i got a new found respect for all working type people.. Especially those who gotta stand all day long... Woo! Kudos to you! Im really tired but i dunno why i wake up so early also... Lol....

Anyways, im attached!! yesh!!! I am!!! To a very very cool and totally hott guy named daniel... I wonder if i should say this.. Cos we just started to go out like 2 days ago... And we met 4 days ago!!! Wooot!!!! Im totally crazy... And he's totally sweet and everything i can possibly wish for... So i guess, i guess..... I guess im attached now!!!! Haha.. Am suppose to meet him later.. But i think he's still in lalaland... So i shall just pass time off by surfing the net.... We're gonna watch a movie.. Hmmmmm... What movie should we watch???? *questions*

Yupps... Ok! Two last shoutouts to people.... first, FRIENDS!!! WooooT!! I miss you!!! Sook han!! You too!!! I wanna go swimming with you!!! But i dunno when you free.. Give me a call yea?

Secondly, to my baby!!!! WAke up sleepy kuku head!!!! I wanna watch a movie!!!! *kisses* ilu

And lastly, BYE!!!