Haven't been updating for so long now. Wow.. I guess blogging's really losing its touch huh? But i still find joy in doing so though, at times.

Well, the prelims have started. I don't feel anything. In fact i don't even have that sense of "kan-jiong-ness" when big exams are nearing. Not even CLOSE!! It's sucha bore. Since kindergarten we've been dealing with exams, tests and all. It's bound to get boring sometime eh? But still, whatta do!!??! Life's like that... Hmmm.... =)

Ok. So i probably have some aims for my results. Im planning to concentrate on those that im slightly better at and score good for them. Cos i know i suck so bad at the rest. So im gonna concentrate on Geography, E Maths and Physics. The rest is like i just hope to scrape through. Except english. I will slaughter myself if i only manage to scrape through english. I hope to get an A for that. =) I hope i can...

Tomorrow's teacher's day. My dad bought chocolates for me to present to my teachers. His colleagues made them nice and fancy and sold them for 5 bucks. Being a kind manager my Daddy bought three. One was greedily eaten by Bryan Low the fat pig of the house. The other two im suppose to wreck my brain to think of two teachers i'd give it to. My dad says i'd better give 'em to my teachers cos its bloody expensive. And i have no idea why he didn't thought of ME eating it but whatever. Teacher's day. Aces day. Class jersey. Half day at school. Don't sound so bad eh? Lol.

Oh my!! I nearly forgot!! Mhd Noh's gonna perform tmr. With his band. Doing that thing you do by the wonders is my fave oldies and they're playing it!! When i heard it i was like holy smokermolies!! Im there for sure!! Plus the theme is 70's i think. So it's gonna be great. The usual pple are gonna do the dance routines and Josephine is gonna sing and dance. She's good i tell you. She's dances like the singapore female version of chris brown. Lol. And chris brown is sooooooooo gorgeous!!! He's like sizzling, smokin', totally HOTT beyond hott. He's a talent. Lol.

Aite. I guess i'll blog about more crap again soon. Life's not that bad. Maybe a little hectic, some shit here and there. But i guess i've grown up a little. And i guess im a lil stronger and better at dealing with these shits now. Im happy. For now... =) Toodly doos sweethearts!!

I keep giving myself excuses to not study... I really wanna study... I try.. I put the god damn papers in front of me.. Read the fiorst three qns and i give up... Crap... Why cant i freakin study?!?!??!! It's PISSIN ME OFF!!!! Urgh.... What the guniang....

Aite. Wtv. I watched this show today on AXN. Excess baggage... Alicia silverstone and Benico del toro acted in it. It's actually quite a nice show. It's like a dream show for me. cos i wished i was the girl. Even though her dad is like a fishball ass who care only about money and his own businesses... Still, it's every girls dream to be what she is in that show. Alah!! i dunno what the hell im talking about anyways...

I haven't got a chance to watch a movie ever since dunno when.. It sucks big time. I wanna watch a movie!!!! Any movie!!! But i dun wanna pay for it... Muahahhaha... Nah~ I'll pay for it if anyone's willing to watch with me. I wanna go on a road trip to malaysia with my friends. But all this i cannot do. All i can do now is at least slack at home. Cos i go out everyday and ill get shit from everyone. You know what the irony is? When you're with the person, and you slack with that person, he/she wun blame you for not studying. But when you're NOT with her/him, and you're out... "YOU ALWAYS GO OUT!!! Cannot study isit??" Rubbish. STOP PUTTING ME DOWN JUST BCOS IM DIFFERENT FROM ALL OF YOU!!! BLAH !!!

Yeah. I feel like i got so much teenage anger inside me now. I guess its all thanks to me bottling up my feelings again. But how am i suppose to open up like it used to when everything's so different now?? Since i can remember, i've either been idolised or discrimnated jsut bcos my taste is different. Or if my actions are different from what the majority would do. Or if im just different!!! I keep trying to understand people that i dun even understand myself no more. I mean, i dun want nobody to feel like i do so whoever that comes to me with problems i try to understand and support them the most i can. But who's that mandy for me?!!?!? Fish balls...

Yea. Maybe it's cos i dun let you guys know my problem. Maybe its cos its me!! I just refuse to believe you guys will understand. BLAH LAH!!! You think i never tried ah!??!!? SMALL THINGS ADD UP TO BIG THINGS PPLE!!! I tell that to every person i know!!!! How much more do i have to elaborate!??!?! I don't care for the big things. Its the small things that counts. Lets say you buy me a car for my birthday. But if you weren't there to present it to me bcos you have a date with your bf, it doesn't make you seem like you love me lots. Cos then i won't be able to share my joy with you and hug you so tight your air supply goes out... THINK ABOUT IT!!!

Yeah.. I know. Nobody can be there for me 24/7.. I gotta be strong. So yea! Im trying to be strong. So i depend on myself. Then you tell me that i changed and i don't talk about my problems anymore??? So am i suppose to depend on you guys or depend on myself?!?!?! Be strong?!?! HOW?!?!?!?!? You think you know me. You don't know shit. You just want and want and want from me. When did you ask me what i want!?!?!? Yeah. cos even if you ask me i won't know what i want right!?!?! Hur... **** ***!!!!

Urgh... I feel screwed.. Take it easy man... Aite.. You guys take care.

And HERE COMES TROUBLE!!! You wanna know who rocks my life like a lullubye sometimes? And yet still make it so adventurous.... I'll show you next .... 

Then next its the cutest human teddy bear alive ... Haha.. Have you ever seen someone look so god damn pinchable in a millitary band uniform!?!??! Gosh.. TEDDY BEAR!!! 

Next... My favourite cartoon characters!!!! WOOTS!!!! Spongebob and patrick star!!! LOVES BABY!!!! They're the dumbest, most sadistically cute shit i've ever seen ... 

My two favourite people other than my family... What a sweet couple eh?? Im so happy for 'em... BLISS baby is a heavenly feeling .... =) 

ALAH!!! Im so bored!!! HELP!!!!! Im gonna try studying soon... SOON!!!! I shall.... Craps... Shit is happening again... How come?!?!?! Am i the shit attractor? Haha... Dammit. I create way too much drama for myself.. Gotta control man... Gosh...

Aite.. The reason why im posting now is cos i cant check into my blog. Something's wrong. So im trying blogging first. Haha... Ok. BYE!

Im starting to lose interest with the computer. There's really nth much going on here... It's getting boring as the days go by. I have no business here but yet i still find it an experience using it. I wonder why. In fact everything in life is getting boring. Nth's really like it used to be. It's so bloody superficial now. B-O-R-I-N-G!!!

You know what's one thing for me that cant seem to stop?? Drama... I don't know when it all started. But ever since i remembered drama has been a part of my life. It stinks most of the time. Bcos most dramas have very sad process. Even though they have like happy ending sometimes but for christ sake!!! I WANT THE GOD DAMN DRAMA TO STOP!!! It's so tiring to catch up with all the happenings. I think im not even gonna bother if another drama comes my way. Bleah!

On the lighter tone, i have gotten my English oral exams over with. May not have done too well. I kinda think i screwed it up. But we'll see. No tears yet. Heh heh... Wth... Im really bored mahn... Like there's nth to type... So many things happening i dun even know where to start.. How how to start. Crapereedees... I wanna go shopping.. I feel like playing volleyball 24/7... It's a fun sport.. Love it, out of a sudden... =)

Well, ill go now then.. Toodles!

This is THE LOVE!!! Ain't nobody can take this love away .. My number one Syg ... Love this Adek of mine... Til death do us part ... And i mean it... =)

This!!! This is my NEXT love... My lil baby brother.. Very irritating at times. Hates it when he turns on the waterworks... But gosh oh gosh do i love this little far-teh... Ain't he just the cutest? Yah. I may have screamed at him more often than necessary but still, he's the love.... The one that keeps me going at times. Just wanna see him grow up into a big strong hunky heart throb... Haha..

This is the life... Four goodest of friends together at the sunny rooftop at Esplanade.. Haha... It was smoking hott okay!??!?! Just check out Jassika's eyes. Lol... Yeah. That's cool...

HOLA ......!!!!! Take care now people... Til we meet again i shall try and go be a nerd...

Im bored... Yesterday was bloody fun.. Played the piano with Mhd Noh and Adek.. We played and joked around like crazy and learnt stuff from the great musicain Mhd Noh.. And he said he wanna teach us how to play the drums.. When i heard that i was like "HOLY FOOKERMOLIES!!! YES AHH!!! DRUMS!!!!"

I would LOVE to learn how to play the drums. That's like freakin' HOTT!! Woooo... Mhd Noh's a great guy man.. Good musician, good sports player, good guy... Good!!! Haha.. Then we also had fun checking out Abu during the GOH rehearsal... Mhd Noh make the best actor man. He was pretending to fall for Abu and his manly-ness... Had lotsa fun laughing our asses of...

And they HAD to talk about this certain guy... And make my feelings for him kinda come back... They say he's a very nice guy and all. Slack, chill... And i was told he kinda knows i have feelings for him... Gosh... That's super screwed... But he's a damn freakin cute ass guy... Shitholes.... I dunno what to say... Muahahahah.... Wun happen lah i tell you.. Trust me on this... =)

Shits.. I have nth more to blog about. So many shit happened.. Hahah... Still living.. No worries... =) Bye!! Prelims coming!! O levels!! I scared!! How!?!?!?? OH NO!!! Btw, i got c5 for my O level chinese. Blah lah... Ok lah. Im okay with that.. Haha... =) BYE!!

I think im too open about my depressed feelings that's why people think im a depressed bitch. Im not depressed. Im just like any of you out there man. I get sad sometimes and i let people know. I guess thats my way of destressing lah. Im sorry. =

So anyways, my day was spent with Siti today celebrating her bday by going singapore idol hunting.. It was tiring but ok lah. Can finally feel how it feels like to be dieheart fans of those idols. I tell you, it needs more skill than you think it requires ok. Its fishball hard work to have the patience to wait for 1 hour just to have 30 seconds with your idol. But i don't even idolise them. So it wasn't really shit for me. I guess i was a tad bit bored. But Siti was quite enthusiastic about it so im alright. So long she enjoyed her bday. =)

This life stinks like a piece of crapballs now. I just wish i can go back to normal. Stop being sucha slut whore bitch. Keep on hurting people that care. FISHBALL!!! I have so much angst in me now!!!! It's irritating the shit outta me!!! What the shitt happening to me seh?!?!? I care but i wanna act like i don't... What's the problem with me??? I thought over already my stupid emotions outburst. But then it HAVE to prove me wrong. Haha... Thanks man...

whatever lah. No mood to blog alr. Later pple say im fishball depressed again. **** ***!!!!!