Hello hello to all my buddies. Ok. I got reprimanded for advertising my blog(unknowingly), because i haven't been updating it. Who you ask is this person who has the guts to scold me? None other than the eminem look-a-like HARRIS ISKANDAR TAN CHEE KEONG. He's damn handsome. Like Eminem. He like's so drool-worthy, so hott and sexy, so rappery-acious, so awesome beyond awesome-ness. Dun ask me, he needs some boost of ego. I think he needs some love. So harris here you go. HEre's to the desire to be desired. I love you harris! Dun run to toilet and cry k??hahaah... YOU'RE THE ONE AND ONLY IRRITATING-EST BRO SOMEONE CAN EVER HAVE. You're still damn cute teddy bear lah. I like you. You entertain me.

Wohkays.. So hows life? Life's been boring. Other than meeting up with old buddies once in a while. I celebrated my birthday in HK. And had a chalet organised for me before that. Got gifts and felt like a lucky happy girl.

HK trip wasn't as expected though. Unforeseen circumstances made me go through many emotions there and i didnt enjoy the trip all in all. Food's good, shopping great. But i still felt like i wasn't on a romantic holiday with the boyf. Add on to that, it being my bday was not good. The day(s) was spoilt by many events of the boyf making many stupid decisions. Well enough of that it's over anyway. Next destination(saving up for it), would proobably be Autralia, for fishing with friends, or to europe. Haha. Why europe? Cos my brother influenced me with thoughts that amsterdam is a damn awesome place, and i just want to go there before he does!!! Lol.. Kidding. Maybe go with him...? think prostitution and drugs and moree.... I dun think both of us wants to see each other high on anything. Especially hooker-ing. Lol....

Well everyday's school for me now. Weekends would probably be spent working to earn money. Cos this year's gonna be damn tight. With the FYP and all, i just don't have the luxury to be lazy and fucked up about school anymore. Plus my FYP advisor is encouraging me VERY STRONGLY to be the leader. Which means if i do it, more responsibility and more pressure and less TIME! How am i going to survive. PLus i need to collect activity points by going to excursions and talks too. Somehow i feel i will die within a couple of months. This is probably worse than O levels. And they tell me poly life is exquisitely exciting without as much work. I hate studying. =(

Just yesterday i punch the wall out of frustration because i had to go to school for a 1 hour meeting for my FYP. WASTE TIME!!! Arghh.... I wanted to stay for awhile and discuss more so we can cover more for that day but it seems my team members were very eager to go home so i went along.

After that met up with the boyf and we went to queensway to eat at his friends stall. what i ate? PORK rice. ALL PORK! Oh and duck too. Then went to walk around and got into another quarrel with allen over buying uneccessary things during a time that we're tight with cash. Didn't go to Novena to buy good steak in the end went home and continued the damn quarrel until i fell asleep. But the nice boy went to buy food during that time and when i woke up i had an awwesome steamboat meal waiting for me outside. i was hesitant to eat it cos i knew eating it meant i forgave him(EGO!!!). But i was uber hungry so i ate. He bribed me into forgiving him!! Sigh.

Actually i dunno wats going on.... I know i was right in the argument. Cos should i have just let him bought what he wanted i knew he wouldn't use it and he wouldn't even have much time to use it. But, yet again, should i just let him do what he wants and deal with his consequence later? I mean, would you see your love ones do something stupid and do nothing about it? I just didn't like the tone he used on me when i told him nicely that he shouldn't buy it cos its not something he needs right now. "dun buy lah dun buy lah. " he said in a very frustrated tone. aiyah. Suak. I got my steamboat anyways. =)

Vokay. Class have been awright. Everyday different class new classmates to be friends with. Very, erm, time and emotional consuming. I really wish i could dig a hole and bury myself in it. I dun have the desire to be desired by them cos im so sick of wanting people to want me. I guess i jsut dun have the confidence to say that im good with people anymore. Cos im not. There's so many going on right now i've found out that i cant find anything. including myself. I look at baby pictures and wish i was still like that. A kid. No worries and all. Or maybe got.. Just simpler issues like how and when to get sweets. And how to run away from witches. Or how to lie and say that i didnt drink cold water when i actually did. Life was goooooood....~~~~

Think this is a long post. Ill see you guys again soon. Tata...